Monday, January 31, 2011

Special Interests

Some / Most or All of what I have to say in this blog could be true for some, most or all people. I don't know because according the those who are in a position to apply labels to others, I am an Aspie. Therefore I don't know if what is true for me is true for people without aspergers too. There are many many myths about people with Asperger's (like that we are all shy and anti social or that all children with asperger's behave badly or inappropriately more often than children who do not have Asperger's, that we are all like rainman) however the idea that Aspies tend to have one special interest on which they focus is probably true for most of us, although it may not seem that way to others. My special interest is and has always been 'how things fit in the natural world', which some people would say means that I am especially interested in everything! Except Im not. Im really not interested in money. No matter how hard I try, the accumulation of wealth doesn't really make sense to me. I wish it did but I cannot make it so. Likewise I am not particularly interested in traditional mathematics although there are certain numbers that I find fascinating (like Fibonacci's sequence and the numbers 11, 88 and 42 (the answer to everything)). Throughout my life I have had passing interests in other things too. As a teenager I had a passing interest in 'making friends' and 'fitting in' (Wow, what a lot of effort that was!), I also had more than a passing interest in drama and singing but I think this was part of my lifelong interest in words, language and speech. I have always been interested in and drawn to 'my people', as in, other people with autism spectrum disorder so it did not come as a surprise when that label was applied to me. I also have a fascination with truth and with time and with patterns in truth and time. There have been some 'themes' that have dominated my special interest in how things fit in the natural world. Right now the dominant theme in my special interest is "invertebrates", past themes include 'birds', 'mangroves', 'intertidal ecology' and 'coastal processes' to name a few.
Given that today is the first day of this blog I will try not to overwhelm you (or me) with too many ideas about special interests but I will say this. If you are a parent, teacher or friend of someone living with ASD (autism spectrum disorder) my personal opinion is that you should use the special interest for positive reinforcement rather than negative. For example 'when you do this particular thing my way you can have or do this other thing related to your special interest'. Negative reinforcement (ie if you don't do what I want then I am going to take your special interest away) may result in the required behavioural outcome but it will come at an enormous cost to the person living with ASD. Again, I can only speak for myself when I say that I was never very forgiving. I have always had a very strong sense of social justice, so positive reinforcement seemed fair to me. The use of negative reinforcement seemed particularly cruel and unfair to me and could destroy my trust in a person forever. If used in the correct way, teachers, parents and friends can use an aspies special interest as a vehicle for all kinds of learning and behaviour modification. Here's an interesting picture of one of my giant burrowing cockroaches shedding it's exoskeleton. Enjoy!

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Repeating patterns


Nothing interests or attracts me quite as much as repeating patterns. Patterns in nature (which is everything), patterns in people, patterns in numbers, patterns in words, patterns in music, patterns in travel / transport, patterns in food or my relationship to it, patterns in me. Sometimes this is a good thing, sometimes its not. Patterns are addictive and I don't always quantify them in a healthy way. I can become addicted to an emotional pattern that is not necessarily good for me, but is none the less interesting. This attachment to pattern is something I see in many of my people and something that challenges parents, friends and teachers... Especially if they are looking for a solution to a difficult (for them) behaviour without understanding that it may stem from an attachment to pattern.

Welcome to my world

Ok so I've started this blog in response to the large number of parents, teachers and friends of people with Asperger's who want to learn more about the way I experience my Aspie world. I make absolutely no assertions that my ideas will be useful or interesting. In fact I'm sure that some of the things I have to say are probably quite controversial. All I can tell you is that the stuff I write here is my truth at the time. Not necessarily the ultimate truth, and not necessarily the truth beyond the moment it is written. That is all I will say about the truth for now as it is far too interesting to get into at this point. Feel free to post questions but please understand that i can only address them from my own experience and point of view. Obviously I can not and do not speak for all my people and what is true for me will not be true for every Aspie out there.